You know that Brad Paisley song "Online?" It's a little dated, he refers to his MySpace account, and well, MySpace is SOOO five years ago. But he talks about how in real life he's a geek who lives in his parent's basement but online he's handsome and successful. I feel like that's me- but backwards.
Online I'm just the wife of a porn addict. In reality, I'm so much cooler!
Okay- but that's not really the reason for this post. Fortunately the awesome women I've met online have the benefit of being totally real online. We can use our anonymity to discuss our true selves. Therefore, they have accepted and loved me without even knowing my actual coolness.
But I do feel like I live two lives. I have two blogs, and Pete and I refer to this blog as the "other" blog and my non-anonymous blog as the "original" blog.
But I'm distracted again, perhaps that is subject for another day...
What I really want to say here is how much I appreciate my virtual friends. They are so far from virtual now, but in the beginning that is exactly what they were. Strangers, no faces and not even actual names.
I said this as a comment on another blog once, but I want the world to know that even in the ugly and dark garden of porn addiction, beautiful friendships grow and blossom. I also have said in emails and comments that someday I am going to plan a retreat for my WoPA and [former]WoPA friends where we can laugh and cry, free of judgement. And as one friend added, eat lots of chocolate.
If you read this blog, and you still feel lonely, I encourage you to reach out. Read through the other blogs I link to, and the blogs they link to, get on the forum, find someone you can relate to and reach out. Eventually you can share real names, exchange texts, and read eachother's "original" blogs. And your life will be enriched and your heart will increase in love and gratitude for the individuals on this earth that God gave you to help and inspire you. That is how I feel anyway.
LOVE YOU ALL SISTAS.