Wow. I really can't believe I've had that much to say. Who am I kidding? I'm never lacking in things to say.
In celebration (?) I have a few links to post:
A teaser for the SHAMED movie. I can't help but feel love and hope when I watch these videos. I would love to have some of these people over for dinner. Including the professionals.
Since this is the place where I can share all the things that are too Taboo to share in my real life: Here is a link about "Defuzzing Your Person." Sometimes I'm in the mood for this sort of thing, today I'm not really. But maybe you are? I like it because this lady is very respectful of body, and if it's not your thing, that's great. http://velvetdragon.com/etc/shave.html
Some really good info on codependency. Just when I think I've learned it all (haha!) I find some new helpful knowledge. Knowledge is so great. http://mentalhealthlibrary.info/library/code/codelds/codeldsauthor/links/hopebook/adjustin3.htm
Right now I feel like I'm getting so much better at coping with relapses, but I'm also realizing that in a weird way I just postpone my reactions. (Thanks Alicia for helping me see this.) Instead of having an immediate meltdown, I have a slow and subtle slip into my self-pity funk. Which leads to an eventual relapse into some more subtle codependent behaviors.
I suck at analogies. Really. But I came up with this bizarre one that best describes the way I feel about my WoPA friends.
Have you ever stayed in the bathtub until all the water is drained out? Laying in a warm full bathtub is comfortable. But as the water slowly drains your body is left to support it's own weight. Bodies are heavy and bathtubs are hard. By the time all the water is gone it is really uncomfortable to be laying there.
Thanks for being my bathwater everyone. Seriously your love and comments (particularly the ones that have the word "bahahaha" in them) are my bouancy to keep me from feeling the hard parts of life too uncomfortably.
Do I really have another 100 posts in me? Pshh. Probably.