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"Sometimes I wonder...can this awful thing really be some incredible spiritual journey?"
First of all, I love the words, "sometimes I wonder." Me too. I OFTEN wonder.
Some trials come upon us because of an unfortunate accident, or circumstances beyond ours or anyone's control. I can't possibly say that it makes those trials any easier, but it does seem like those circumstances are clearly God's will. Especially when there is no reasonable explanation for them.
But then there are trials that seem go against God's will. By that I mean, people use their agency to make stupid choices that are contrary to the choices God wants them to make.
So is this really what God wants for me?
There are a million different answers to those questions, you have to find them yourself. In the beginning there was nothing spiritual about this for me. It was painful, disappointing, frustrating and had everything to do with sin. I HATED that Pete's bad choices were so hurtful. There was much anger. (And my situation isn't even as extreme as others.)
But along the way I've learned a few things, and as I started to recognize a change in me I could see that I could learn from this. I encourage you to think of ONE thing, one little thing that you understand now that you didn't before. Maybe its the way you treat others, maybe its the discovery of your own inward strength, maybe its something about the type of mother you want to be or maybe its an amazing new friendship that wouldn't have happened otherwise.
I know it doesn't seem like this whole ugly ordeal is worth one little nugget of truth, but start a list. And even if it takes years you might be able to see how far you've come.
Guess that's wasn't so quick. Anyone else want to weigh in?