I first saw this video when Mara posted it on her birthday. It spoke to my soul. It is so full of truth that I'll probably refer back to it again. But today I want to talk about his last words.
* And finally, when you are compelled to give up something or when things that are dear to you are withdrawn from you, know that this is your lesson to be learned right now. But know also that, as you are learning this lesson, God wants to give you something better.
What was withdrawn from me? My ideas about the life I was going to lead, the marriage I was going to have, and the husband I chose. My golden expectations about what my future held were withdrawn from me.
I'm blessed to already recognize the better life God wants to give me. I have been given a greater undrestanding of love, forgiveness and peace. I have been given a stronger marriage that testifies of its strength through its survival of difficult trials. And I have seen my husband stretch to reach a new potential I was not aware he had.
In addition to those blessings, my heart has been transformed. I have found out that to be a better me I was "compelled to give up" the stubborn and self-pitying me.
As I look back at my dark days and remember the anguish of disappointment, hurt and frustration I feel gratitude for the progress I've made. But I also have a heart full of love for those who are still in the midst of the darkness. While I am aware that my future still holds disappointment, hurt and frustration whether regarding addiction or other trials, I feel hope and I pray that you might find hope as well.