tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4105200008559051844.post2582529173033824958..comments2023-10-07T08:28:40.726-07:00Comments on Learning from My Husband's Pornography Addiction: Pearl HarborJanehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15354593791540400671noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4105200008559051844.post-4095815814558723572013-05-23T22:09:32.963-07:002013-05-23T22:09:32.963-07:00Ugh. You're in my prayers. Always.Ugh. You're in my prayers. Always.Buffalo Galhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05715621872243024241noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4105200008559051844.post-60493145061759829742013-05-23T12:44:37.605-07:002013-05-23T12:44:37.605-07:00Jane,
Please know that the boundaries you have se...Jane,<br /><br />Please know that the boundaries you have set will help pete. as long as the spirit was present in that moment. I say that because my wife had done the same thing to me. It was the spirit that carried it to my soul to make me feel a gut wrenching pain of what i had caused. I will never understand or comprehend the pain i put my wife through. I will share an experience i had two months ago that caused more pain and mental anguish i had ever experienced. Knowing fully well it will not remotely compare to what i caused my wife. <br /><br />I had a dream (a vision) of my wife and sons happy and smiling. I saw my wife emabraced by a man who had no face. I saw my sons playing with this same man with no face. The words that were spoken to me are words i will never forget, they were "are you going to be the face in the future". Those words rattled my very soul. I woke up and shared that dream with my wife. She said to me "i love you but that could be a reality". MORE PAIN had hit me. Since that day i have recommitted to staying in recovery and showing my wife i am changing. I have come along way and my wife and I have come a long way. we now focus on the small victories. its been amazing to experience together. We have meaningful talks, true emotional and spiritual connection. I know i cant change the past but i know i will fight like a soldier in war to make sure (with the Lord's help) I am the face of the future and be that man embracing my wife and playing with my sons.<br /> <br /><br />I know my wife loves me and encourages me daily to be a better husband, father and person. that same love is also from my Savior. It took my sweetheart and the dream to make me feel pain and want to change. PAIN is what i had to feel in order for me to WAKE UP. <br /><br />My wife and I know what its like. DONT QUIT!! Its hardwork to get sober and hardwork stand by your husband. With the Lord in our life and focus with us as a team we will make it!! Boundaries i have learned are a must and as i have learned done with love will penetrate the soul. <br /><br />From,<br /><br />A humbled soldier<br /><br />I know pete personally Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4105200008559051844.post-23162319852099278682013-05-22T18:02:35.321-07:002013-05-22T18:02:35.321-07:00oh boy. i ache. i feel exactly these things.
i fe...oh boy. i ache. i feel exactly these things. <br />i feel that waiting outside the bathroom panic more than once a day.<br />is it a terrible boundary to have him poop with the door open? =] im kidding but i would also love it. lol<br />its part of my trust problem. its part of my anxiety.<br />its part of what i need to control.<br />i get that. <br />but what about the fact that more times than not, im right? he really was doing those things?<br />this is so exhausting. <br />as much as i hate knowing you're hurting, it is comforting to know you're out there fighting this as much as p. and i. <br />thank you for writing and sharing your feelings jane. it helps me.<br />love,<br />d.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05842244440483668579noreply@blogger.com